In.Motion

I have a tendency to want things sooner than I should. Or maybe I should say, I like to be where I want to end up sooner than life allows. Since this is the case, I have a nasty tendency to rush things. At the root of this, is a sense of entitlement, and within that is where my pride resides. I’ve known this for a long time, but I’ve never put the work that is required to separate pride from my character.

I think that some of my greatest strengths have also been the source of the constant thorn in my step. A man much wiser then me once said, “Never let your talent outrun your character”. This is not to say that I’m some kind of over-gifted brat or that I am something greater than what I am. It is to say that I’ve allowed the things that I’ve been blessed with in life to control the direction of my life and effect my priorities in it.

The solution to all this is to humble myself. To humble myself daily and to focus on what it looks like to make humility what I am about, rather than this pride that I’ve allowed to fuel my efforts for far too long. Seeing God for who He is and how He is is where I start. Declaring my dependance on and trust in God is how I take out the corrosive leech that has securely attached itself to my character and identity for far to long.

All this is to say that I feel like I’m moving again. I feel like I have a plan for what I need to do. All is left is to wake up each day and decide to make choices that rebuild my character. That continue to erase this pride from who I am. That continue to help me find my identity in the death and rising of the God that’s never left me.

One.Love

cd

It’s been a crazy busy few weeks.
Yea, that could be my excuse for not running or eating real well. However, it would be wrong. The truth is that I’ve just been lazy. I have a tendency to get excited about things like this and then having poor follow through. If it’s a song I’m writing or a dish I want to learn to cook, I’m all over it until I figure it out.

My problem is I don’t like to push myself. If something doesn’t come easy to me, I don’t like to work for it. Now that I’ve recognized the issue, I need to do something about it. I just need to keep myself aware of my tendencies, and then fight them. Just like when I’m running, I remind myself that I can go further than I think and I push myself. It’s helping and I’m changing. It’s a beautiful thing.

Ok, so lets get to some results. The last time I weighed myself (before tonight) was almost a month ago. In that time, I’ve been to NYC, Myrtle Beach for a Bachelor Party, & eaten more delicious food than is smart for a guy trying to lose weight. Enough blabbering, here it is:

I was: 235 lbs

I am: 229 lbs

What?!? I lost weight? That makes no sense, but I don’t think that it a coincidence that it happened after I started working myself by running again. Running seems to work really well for me, even though I hate it. Speaking of running, I went running this afternoon, trying to be the rain (or what turned out to be monsoon out of nowhere). I got in 5.75 mi, and around 4.5ish the bottom fell out of the sky. I just started laughing and smiled the rest of the way home. It was such an awesome time. Funny note: I was listening to Paramore – When It Rains when it started to pour. That’s just funny.

So my plan is to keep running hard, cut out most/all sugary drinks, & to be mindful of what I’m eating. I’ve got Tom & Martha’s wedding coming up this week, so that’s gonna be awesome. I’ll probably eat awesome food that’s not awesome for you. I’m telling you ahead of time that I’m not gonna feel bad about it. Cheers.

Here’s to bein back on the horse.

One.Love

cd

I’m not sure what to think this week.
I started out by changing how and what I ate. That’s going well, and it’s going to take some time for it to become a lifestyle for me. My workouts have been going well. I’m doing strength training 3-4 times a week and I’m trying to run everyday, if I can. I got a Nike+ setup, and it is awesome.

Sara Beth told me about it a while ago and I made fun of her. I thought it was a dumb idea. However, it turns out that I was wrong and she is right. Not only does it track your runs and gives you data to look at and compare later, it gives you realtime info on how your doing. Tom, Martha & I are trying to run 150 mi before the wedding (July 11). I think it’s possible. Nike+ has turned running into something of a game for me, which helps (because I hate running).

So, lets get to it, the results for this week. It hasn’t felt like a good one, physically, but maybe there was progress. Here it is:

I was: 230 lbs

I am: 235 lbs

I’m a little discouraged by this. And by a little, I mean a good bit. I don’t really understand how my body works. I think the increase in cardio and running will help a lot, or so I hope. I’m trying not to get down on myself about this because I know I can do better. I just have to keep my head down and keep pushing. I refuse to quit on something I know I need to do.

One.Love

cd